No I am not writing a post about "self-love". Rather, I am writing about control which may or may not go hand in hand with self-love, just think about it.
I have always been a huge believer in the healing power of music. For me, music feeds the soul and gives insight into who you are, what you love, what breaks your heart and what you want in life.
Sometimes my sense of adventure can lead to some amazing stories while other times it makes me look hmmm... how do I say this, well crazy!
I am not sure if anyone else is like me in the fact that they have a very hard time putting themselves first.
Personally, I always thought the concept of love vs. hate seemed pretty straight forward - you have a choice on if you want to love someone (aka accept them) or if you want to hate them
Four years ago I awoke with mixed emotions as I knew my life was about to change. On one hand, I had so much joy because I knew I was marrying someone that I dreamed of marrying for many years. On the other hand I was full of fear.
The one and only Blind Date I went on, I should have followed my gut and reminded myself of the above. This blind date came courtesy of my realtor.
During this process, I have tried to learn and grow. Sometimes I kick ass at this and find myself thinking, "damn Breezy you are one insightful bitch". Other times, I suck and end up sitting in my bed, watching Netflix, crying into my bowl of Cheetos, thinking, "this was all my fault ".